[lorikelly]

Hello

I have not been on in a long time. i first started coming here when i lost my mom on July 3rd, 2006. I just found out my brother died. We have not spoken since my mom passed. I had wrote a long post about my family and how we don't speak when i was grieving my mom. My brother died 1yr ago and i just found out from someone. I feel so sad and the pain of the grief is so overwhelming. i am afraid to feel that way again. he did not want me to know he was dying or to come see him . I just can't believe he left this world with so much anger towards me. I gave up my anger, forgave him and continued to pray for him everyday and hoped one day we would be a family again. Now that will never happen. i can't change what has happened but i am not sure how to go on from here. I have 3 other siblings and none of us speak . I want to some how reach out to them so that this does not happen again. Even if they don't want a relationship i think i need to let them know how i feel. they don't even talk amongst themselves. My heart is broken and I don't want to be on this journey again. The pain is to great. Thanks for listening. Lori

[derby]

Lori,
I am so very sorry for your loss and hope God will lead you to whatever would be helpful to heal your relationships with your siblings. Blessings, Debbie

[lorikelly]

thank you so much. i am hoping that God will help me find away. Right now i am going through the grief and this journey as we all know is so hard. I am taking one day at a time.